Challenge Fail

I obviously couldn't stick to updating once a week. So we will change this challenge to updating once a month.

That way, when I look back I won't be disappointed in myself for not updating once a week. Similarly I'll pat myself on the back if I update more than once a month.

Like most blogs/on-line journals in the past. I'm sure I'll frequent this spot to vent about my real life.

Today's topic: Men

First of all, let's just say that I'm 25 now and I can no longer call men, boys. Which throws me off alot because that would mean I'm a women, and adult if you will, and being an adult scares the SHIT out of me.

Moving on, Men... at 25 I still have yet to figure them out. Infact I get the same massive headache I did when I think about boys I did when I was 17. I question myself alot when it comes to dating or the prospect of dating. I try and keep in mind that if a guy actually wanted to go on a date with me he'd have already asked me out. However, recently I was told that, infact that isn't the case. So what now? Am I suppose to ask out the guy? Me?

Which leads me to then think about gender roles and whether or not I'm as progressive as I'd like to believe when it comes to modern day gender roles.

Which leads me to then think about Disney movies and how they have failed me and while I can draw the line pretty thick between real world and fairy tale, if i'm being honest with myself then I'd have to admit that on very rare occasion I do fancy myself a day dream or two of meeting the man that will sweep me off my feet.

Which makes me irritated and then pist off again that I still can't figure out men. So all that's left for me is to put on a good record- volume so high I can't hear myself think. Nothing is solved and 8 months down the road I hit this road block again.

Being a girl is hard.